• Sunday, September 02, 2007

    back home.... its very..very...very depressing being home... every damn thing feels so bloody alien... i dont like it here.... its been raining non stop for 2 days.. i feel sick.. i feel down.. i get a headache being in my room... was happy with the 100 or so channels on the tele but im growing bored of that as well...
    i hate being at home.. and i cant seem to go out cause its raining... and i bloody hate the rain...
    the first day i was back.. i just took may out... and drove.... till the wee hours of the morning... reluctant to go home... i nearly even drove down to singapore... only thing that stopped me was may had just got up from 6 months of hibernation....

    i feel so rough... unshaven... unkempt.... feel like a bag of shit... slept so much.. i dont wanna sleep no more... my minds a complete mess...

    as much as i disliked it... but i suppose life was simpler and maybe even had more meaning..when i had 5 hours sleep a day... attended 8am meetings.. worked bout 15 hours a day.... guess i could even afford a smile then... now life feels so empty... like no purpose.. no meaning... think i need to get into rehab for depression or some shit like that...

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