• Friday, August 10, 2007

    testosterone.... melatonin....
    pissy skies.... and beer....


    what pissy weather man.... it was lovely just a lil while ago... sunny.. breezy... clear blue skies.... and now its dark.... wet... and just plain pissy....
    i just got back from a run... and at pretty good timing i reckon... cause soon after it started raining.... heh! the rain's apparently stopped but its still dark and pissy...

    the day started out with a meeting... i got up feeling rather.... like shit... so got myself an mc after the meeting.... was trying to get some sleep... it so weird cause im so used to being awake and at work at noon... but it did manage to fall asleep... then the phone calls start coming in.... never mind that, but somehow my mom decides to call ... what's it with mother's like having a sixth sense? somehow she sensed i wasnt well... paranoia sets in knowing that im sleeping at noon... not at work AND on mc...!
    got bombarded with questions.... why..what...? "im alright mom... its nothing.. just phlegm and i just need some rest..." dont lie! after believing i convinced her that im ok.. tried going back to sleep and it just wouldnt happen.... melatonin's a bitch that wouldnt help me get some sleep in the afternoon.... but mom thanks for caring... i do love you!

    that aside.. i just had to drag my arse out for a run... its been a while... and i havent feel the rush...the adrenalin in a while... today's run wasnt that good... nothing great...somewhere round 3k's or so.... i hadta push..push...push... i feels sucky that your body's giving up and your mind keep's pushing.... i say this so often.. but hell if i dont take my fitness seriously anymore... i used to be able to do atlease 300 crunches at a time and feel fucking good after.... i only managed to do 20 feeling so pathetic earlier..... its a real eye opener as to how bad my fitness level really is.... all that hard work... all that pain.. pretty much gone to waste... now i've got the whole evening to relax.... should i go out to the cinema for a movie or lay my ass on the couch and watch John McClane kill those motherfuckers, in Die Hard 2.... decisions... i hate having to think so much... should i ask her out.... but i dont wanna portray myself as being too needy... let there be some space in between.... decisions... fuck having to think every step before doing something....

    thats the fucking reason i went for a run in the first place.... to clear my mind... start out fresh... fuck having to be so analytical....

    pictures... pictures.... pictures.... Siva and i visited Tiger Live couple weeks back.... it was a spur of the moment thingy... i saw the brochure and it said one complimentary super cold tiger.... i was convinced... siva needed a lil push though... but yea we ended up at St.james.... we we're the only 2 jokers on the tour.... suckers.. you might say.... it takes bout 45 mins to go thru the whole thingy... you go thru different rooms... lotsa video's.. how tiger started... how tiger is made.. like we didnt know how beer is made already? how tiger has evolved... and the cream de la cream at the end....

    It costs us adults... 18 bucks for a tour... guide included.... like i said... its not all that... you walk around... watch videos.... look at stuff... if you're expecting more... go to a science centre or something ya.... no hands on in making beer and stuff here.... but if you're like me and get a kick out of old stuff.... then go ahead to tiger live.... the amount of old tiger memorabilia they had over there was amazing... yea pretty sure they're replicas but what the hey... its the closest thing to going back to days when our parents were young... besides.... for 18 bucks... you get to enter any of the clubs in St. James for free... no fucks! just retain your ticket... come back later at night and you get in for free... no cover charge... worth it right?

    old skool tiger bottle... and label.... pretty much like something home made....


    i really liked their old stuff... real fascinating.... like the tiger on the old label was like such a pussy... and the current tiger looks more like a tiger.... they had the weirdest slogan for a beer... "tiger, tenaga berganda".... "multiplied energy"..... like what the fuck man.... was tiger some kinda of aphrodisiac or something back in the days.....

    replica of 1950's tiger factory...... thats our guide Gilbert.... a lil gay...? thats for you to decide...

    forgot the name of the bar... its one of those in the St. James family.... this was the fun part...

    look at that beer tap.... its fucking frozen with nitrogen..... kinda reminds me of that sloth from ice age.... yea... you'd be amazed at how many other things it reminds you of from different angles..

    Jeffrey... our bartender... looks like he's having fun.... we had a go at tapping our own tiger.... that gold liquid is flowing out at a super cold -2 dc...... the best fucking tiger i've ever had! and i am seriously not a tiger fan.... but freshly tapped tiger at -2dc is unbelievable...!

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    Wednesday, August 08, 2007

    im so freakin exhausted... its not even funny.... cant feel my legs.. its been a while since my legs hurt this much.... thank god i didnt go for that run yesterday....
    it was a good day... but i was rather crappy... i had too much sleep last night... bout 12 hours worth of sleep.... im so unused to that much of sleep... i average bout 6 hours a night... if im lucky.... waking up in the morning felt totally uninspiring...
    rather depressed as well... i have 3 weeks left of my contract... im seriously not renewing the contract... 3 weeks feels like fuckin forever... every time i look at the calender its still 3 weeks..... no one to talk with on the way back... the one i'd hoped to talk with didnt answer... dad was still at work... rather depressing ride home.. was bitching bout it to mag... she takes ages to reply her sms's though...
    so yea here i am... in pain.. depressed... tired... woo hoo! two thumbs up to me wankers!

    Friday, August 03, 2007

    lying down in bed.. its almost 1am... it'll be back to work in a blink of an eye or so... sleep is so much a luxury yet i feel i can do much more than sleep... bullocks this human mind of ours... many things to do... havent got do doing any... been wanting to change my ipod playlist, for say 2 maybe 3 months now... told myself in the train earlier it'd be fucked if i dont do it today... got home and realised i have the same 15 gig's of crap on my hard drive.... limewire hasnt been very active since i got here... stuffy nose... breathing thru mouth... sucky feeling.... been pissy at work... i know why i get like this... freakin ppl we call customers... i was sarcastic to a couple of ppl today.... im sorry.... im a nice person.... but it just happens... stop pissing me off will ya? feel like pulling a mc tomorrow.... but i've got stuff to set up and prepare for the weekend..... that's what being married to work is all about....

    the great singapore sale has come and gone.... we did better this previous month... i have a pretty reliable team and im happy with them so far... the new month's always a bit of a challenge... at lease being on par with the previous month... we're clearing stuff before the end of summer and the national day is just a week away... i've got a shit load and more of national day premiums to clear ASAP! im targeting to clear at lease 80% of the stock in a week.... we'll see how it goes... i just set up bout half the national day display today bout 20 more cartons to go... im placing one person permanently by the display to stop 'em motherfuckers from messing up the merchandise... i can already imagine the mess and clutter and all that folding... but it has to be done if we wanna clear our national day crap....

    on the other hand.. i've got like 25 days left of my contract... they're expecting me to renew my contract and stay on.... which im clearly not going to... even though i'd be getting a fatter pay cheque and a slightly higher position... i dont think its worth it.... seriously money aint always everything... i've also been offered a way higher / senior position back home...based in KL with malaysian ringgit.... more work for less money.... decisions decision decisions......
    do i wanna return home... have a damn good career... start all over again... be closer to family... get paid just enough to survive.... or stay back here... start all over again with another job... being with my many friends here... shopping... night life etc... and have more than enough dough end of the month.... i've got like 3 weeks to decide... and it totally sucks... one way or another im gonna regret something....
    i watched the devil wears prada the other day.... and what perfect timing it was... there was a quote by nigel... something bout you know you're doing well in work when you dont have a life... and when your life goes up in smoke, its time for a promotion... fuckin true.... so many things in this mind of mine.... geeezzzzz!

    all i wanna do is finish this 3 weeks... take a long holiday... relax... but then again i dont want this to end.. cause i havent had a life for the past 9 months and life is gonna be so empty after this.... fuckin fickle minded....

    its time to hit the sack... im starting to type like a spastic now...

    cheerio...